This is how it looks like..
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My Current Feeling: Neutral.
Wearing what?: Basketball shorts, no top.
What happened?
Just arrived from my last day shift for this week. I am supposed to be feeling really happy and jolly right now since it's finally another two days off ahead, pero I feel the opposite way.
I am not really in a depression state though. I am just feeling Neutral. Why? It's actually the feeling you get when you think there's something you need to be happy about but the current occurences suggest the other way around.
When we came back from lunch break (me and the whole team went on lunch together coz Diebhe, my so called second mom, brought cooked rice and nag-amot2x kami to buy oven roasted chicken) I was able to take in a very bad call. I was able to resolve the issue pero cust was somehow rude and he was taking the lead during the call. I felt very stupid and dumb during the t/s because he was suggesting everything.
And another thing that added to my frustration was when TL blasted all my unknown tickets in our team chatroom. I had the second most number of unknown tickets due to customers not giving out their email addresses. I feel bad because I wasn't updated of things that TL wants us to do. My off is during wednesday and thurday so I am always not present during team meetings because most of the team members have saturdays and sundays off. But I still accepted that it was my fault. TL, has the point naman kasi because I am not asking for the customer's email before I start the t/s so if the call gets disconnected while in the middle of the t/s, I would put unknown nalang when supposedly I should just had left the default email eh.
And I know there's still something that's causing me this neutral feeling. I just can't figure out what it is. I feel like I just want to spend my whole 2 days off locking myself inside my room and do nothing. I even feel sick about facebook but I still log in to it and still read updates and do updates. I want to tell everyone that I want to just quit blogging *again* but then my other me tells me that I should not do so. I don't know what's happening.
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Whew! Sorry you shouldn't have read about my rants there. Hahaha! I was just trying to release the tension I had inside by putting it into writing.
It's very nice to compose a post realizing that no one will ever read it except me. (Yeah, it's a private blog and it's not accessible to public..LOL) The only sad thing is I could not anymore reply to comments from other people reading my blog. But well I guess I can also submit comments on my own posts, can't I? hehehe
The article above was just an excerpt of the whole original thing. I had to cut out some very personal things. And uhmm, it's unedited so pardon the grammar and spelling. (woot)
